Holly Madison Wants to be a 'Loving, Supportive and Involved Mom'

Playboy model Holly Madison is scared of giving birth. The 33-year-old blonde beauty, who is in her seventh month, opened up about her pregnancy experiences with the bump.com, celebritybabyscoop reported.

"Truthfully, being pregnant is changing me as a person. Each day is part of this amazing journey that has completely shifted the focus of my life and made me reevaluate my personal and professional goals," she told the bump.com. "I think what I am trying to say is I look at my choices now though my future daughter's eyes. Being pregnant has made me much more conscious of my decision making, particularly in my career choices. I want my daughter to be proud of me and look up to me."

However, the mom-to-be, who is waiting impatiently for her daughter's arrival, is a little confused about the whole idea involved in giving birth.

"I still can't even decide on a labor plan," she said. "There are so many factors to consider! Have you ever heard the horror story about women who push their bladder out of their vagina during labor? I don't know how common or true that is, but that's my biggest fear! [Laughs.]" she said on the website.

However, Madison has already planned about the kind of relationship she wants to have with her children.

"Time will tell but I know I will be an incredibly loving, supportive and involved mom. My hope is I can help my kids find their passions and give them - within reason - what they will need to follow their dreams! I will try to accomplish this by being the kind of mom who builds a strong and solid family life and support system," "The Girls Next Door" star, who visited Disney World and Hawaii as part of her babymoon with boyfriend Pasquale Rotella, explained to the website.

Madison started modelling to pursue her studies and pay her college tuition. She became popular after appearing as one of the girlfriends of Playboy magazine founder Hugh Hefner, through the TV series "The Girls Next Door". In 2008, Madison officially announced her breakup with Hefner.